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But that’s
a hummingbird
tsk-tsking
in the chaste
tree
so loudly but when
I come
to look he goes
silent
then I see
his shadow
escaping
from
the other side
of the
tree it sounds like
a scolding
a chastisement
which
no one can evade
a hook
at the end
of the
whip he lashes
over
the backyard shade
Just
because we haven’t
accomplished
it
doesn’t
mean
it isn’t
there anymore
that
we can allow
our standard
to fall
by the
wayside
because
no one’s coming
to
correct it
we must correct it
first
in ourselves
and
only by that strength
establish
it for others
Certain
elements
of the
story
belong
in poetry
but
not the story itself
still
merely a mood
on the
horizon while
meanwhile
poetry
was already
ancient
and
full of itself
long
before it became
even remotely
personal
or the
bearer of dead
and
living love
Sooner
or later
you have
to sit down
with
your evil sides
when
you recognize
you’re
becoming them
by
fighting them
with
evil methods
how
our thoughts
plunging
deeper
suffer
when we shackle
them
with words how they die
on
their crossed meanings
only
to rise again
in
memories and dreams
Every
rain is beautiful
even when
it’s terrible
even
when it’s a tease
and
will not fall
for
such as you
but
sails regally overhead
was
once the earth a stone
eons
of rain-drops
built
up to this
polluted garden
or
think of the earth as
some
intergalactic rain’s
first
drop to fall
of
what you sense
will
be a flood
I wake
late
with a
leaf
in my
hand
I can
only
speak in
three
word
lines and
I can
only
stare at
you
asleep
or awake
on
some level
aren’t
I always
staring
at you
asleep
or awake
If you
try to understand
them they
become more
and
more fascinating
whatever
it is and you
start
to feel a certain
passion
for them even if
not
yet for their own sakes
but
for what they can
give
you make you feel
until
they cease to please
and
the love runs out
all
acquisition
until
you’re the one
for
sale
My
angel said we’re going to need
additional
software the memory
that
you are seeds of gods
is
buried deep in the hard drive
but
you still haven’t connected
materialism
with disease with
death
have you my angel is
like a
homeless person shaking
in the
street raving at me when
I pass
by what if the most powerful
metaphor
came into the world as
history’s
most humble man
what
would that tell you about us
we
most need to know right now
and
don’t want to he cries
No one
ever talks
about transcendence
anymore
it’s
simply dropped out
of the
lexicon the formulary
now it’s
all about translation
as if
that didn’t embrace
any
transaction between
two
objects of any kind
he
sings because he suffers
once
music streamed into
his
head through his hair
he
couldn’t get it out of there
but
that he could feel
something
outside himself
even
more intensely
than
himself
that
he could dare
But I still
desire
you
and I
am old
and
good
comes
over me
sometimes
ridiculously
a dull
longing
to
know all
this
and still
be new
be
fooled
and
taken down
that
same old
road
again
Just
when I’ve seen
the world
and admit
I love
it more than
I
thought I would
fear it hate it need it
they
want to take me
back
to that other
plantation
but with
what
eyes will I
not be
born blind
deaf
and dumb there
except
for a few
days
of bliss
I’ve
earned not
through
anything
I’ve
done but the
mammoth
luck
of
being here
with
you
The
mustness of today
insists
on the maybe
of all
the other days
the vastness
of today
reaches
even here into
your
own consciousness
as its
other half
the
rashness of today
which
travels farther out
and won’t
be rescued
the insincerity
of today
only those
who can
face
it come back
unbroken
more alive
What
makes death
such a
great teacher and friend
besides
his general brilliance
and comprehensive
command
of his
subject is that
he
lets us play truant
to our
fates for a while
because
what death teaches
is
that we don’t need
what he
teaches
that
we can love life absolutely
but we
have to pay to go there
to his
private school
to
find that out
and that
we can deepen
our
sincerity about everything
as an
equal in the seven worlds
if we just
try not to pretend
to be
so selfless all the time
I
think of it as quilting
literary
quilting
the
long poem
I can
only manage
a small
soiled napkin
coveting
one sneeze at a time
I once
sneezed nineteen
consecutive
lines I was
completely
naked inside
neither
by association
nor by
dissociation
but by
what inspires both
my
motto: what a shit
you
are sometimes
I
often say to myself
what a
little
shit I
am
going
to be
but to
see I
can’t
take even my
little
goodness with me
if I would
behold a true
objective
picture
of myself
or
anything else
but
must leave my
own opinions
behind
From a
certain mountain
my body
is a prison
I mean
a prism
a vision
buried
in a
vision
driving
past the backyards
of
prior lives
unexcavated
lies
trying
to fade
into
the landscape
as it
hurries past
four
times as fast
leaving
us in the dust
alone
at last
Stalking
a dead
leaf I
came to
a dead
flower
I was
being tortured
by the
hour
silver
blades
slipped
under my skin
peel back
the beauty
to the
plum-pink
throbbing
pulp
I live
within
a
certain mess I made
the blood
runs down the arm
totally
astonishing at first
and
then you feel responsible
for
the whole world
A poem
must be
not only
a refusal
of the
cold tone of voice
and
brusque business
attitude
of prose
but
show how
words can
push
as far
as they can
against
the blank
spaces
to their right
on a
page or screen
how
you can feel
this
happening if
you
take the time
where
things get
technical
or tender
and
make-up is applied
backstage
for your births
and
funerals
Is it
a test
of hope
to order
80 black
ink
cartridges
for the
fountain
pen
you still
write
in long-
hand
with in
lined
notebooks
just because
they’re
available
at
bargain
discount
these
days
the skyrocketing
price
of a poem
my
lord you’re
getting
this one here
for
nothing
I
consider death
an event
in life
important yes but
certainly
not final
that
makes no sense
we’ve
come that far
picture
it for once
from
the other side
when
you really do go on
the
excitement
the
sense of triumph
and if
you really didn’t
believe
it or want to
the
sense of freedom
from a
physical world
of false
assumptions
bad
faith and starving
millions
for a while
Our
garden fairly glows
after the
storm
the
sun rises too
over
its dripping glory
and
astonished
immortal
flower-faces
such
peace saturated
with
peace as only
terrible
war produces
here
is given freely
the
coin of another realm
in the
making
where
we are grown
My
cactus
wears a
halter
of
thin
silk
strands
to
hold him up-
right
in the pot
he’s
so far
outmaneuvered
escaped
from
so
many times
I keep
lassoing him
until
he blooms
no I
say
though
you wear the sky
for a
shirt and the sun
for a
beating heart
you too
must flower
and die
The
one who prefers
this to
that
will
never understand
the
world
she
will never
face
the truth
when
he meets it
or rather
when it
meets them
catches
up accosts
and
slaps
me hard
once
on each cheek
so
both cheeks hurt
and
both hands
I believe
the rain is not
having
anything or
staying
put somewhere
but
traveling and staring
from
windows that the eye
is
made up of millions
of
tiny eyes all of them
weeping
and laughing
and
that sleeping or
waiting
at the station
we are
always moving
steadily
toward some
lifesaving
assignation
It’s
Thursday already
in the
history of the world
garbage
pickup day
I
remember in the country
my grandparents
threw their garbage
right out
into the backyard
where
it piled up stinking
even
as a child I was amazed
it’s
Thor’s day by Jove
the day
the Lord gave
us our
orders the day the colors
arrive
in nascent eyes
a
rainy light descends from
a cloud
across the street
on a Thursday
of my feelings
wandering
toward us all
Through
my body
I have
the sense
I am
not my body
I am
not anyone at all
I am
these thoughts
that are
thinking
me-you-us-one-
I-love
in order of
situational
appearance
that
out of the temporary
elements
I lift up
my permanent
self
for
the first time
out of
my own perception
The
percept ‘thinking’
belongs
to the concept ‘I’
but the
percept ‘I’ belongs to
the
concept ‘bodiless idea’
(which
exists in the guise
of ‘life-death-happiness-evil’)
but
actually the percept ‘I’
belongs
to the concept ‘Christ’
or ‘Yahweh’
or ‘Allah’ or ‘Elohim’
if you
take those to mean
all
you wanted anyone to be
the
idea of a kindness
which
bleeds not so much
that
you won’t have to
but
that when you copiously do
the
percept ‘blood’
belongs
to the concept ‘love’
as it once
did for you
What I
want to happen
as you
read these marks
on the
faces that you see
behind
the screen
is for
you to turn
the
sun of your eyes
the
other way for once
and
peer down
with
that narrow
flash-light’s
gaze
inside
your cranial
arch and
down
the
perilous throat
rappel
with your
sure
words we are
too full
of ourselves
and
finally reach
the
place where we
metabolize
ourselves
where
we take one
piece
of the world
at a
time and turn
it
back to nothing
once
again
A
lousy businessman
a
superficial scholar
a
nervous botanist
a
sycophantic chef
a
skipping pebble
a
new-growth forest
an unrepentant
summer
a repressed
executioner
a gutless
lover
all
these had gathered
in the
vestibule
of one
of my dream
mansions
but of course
I wasn’t
sleeping
I wasn’t
even home
I let
the rain
wipe the
dust
from
my head
I
cross the road
before
the road
crosses
me
my
truth is in Wisconsin
but my
heart
is
waiting at the curb
you are
there
whole
days missing
from
my face
you
were always more
lyrical
more seasonal
than
me
Helplessness
is not
so much
the problem
as the
point
of
earthly life
to go
there in order to
surrender
holding glances
to
give your life away
and
searching always
for some
greater god
than
yourself to serve
to
find the one in all
everywhere
and nowhere
the
last two places
you would
look
Isn’t
the heart
a kind
of oasis
after
the desert
of the
brain
after
all the thorny
abstractions
broken
furniture
sudden
alarms
it comes
as a relief
to hear
it
suck and spit
knead
and fold
the
helpless blood
tasting
even the sun
on its
skin saying
almost
indifferently
roll
me this way
then
roll me back
Some
of me still
isn’t
sure you’re
there
waiting
beside
my death
as I
am for you
even
if all around
me the
evidence
of
love accumulates
and
deepens
turning
into my body
and
the world still
why
should I trust
it if even
now
after
my thousandth
disaster
survived
I’m
still afraid
Will
you let
knowing
how
the
story
ends
spoil
the
story
for
you
or
preserve
the
child not
as a fear-struck
mummy
or a heartless
tyrant
but
the
freshness
that you
will
never be
that
sincere
again
I love
the drama
of the
slammed door
the
storming down the
street
which at least
gives
me time to
listen
to some bird
where
could he
have
learned such
sorrow
or see
each
tree or plant
as some
variation
on the
personal lives
of the
beings who
perform
and reflect
their
cold thoughts
strolling
through
despair
a park
of you
for me