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When we
work our way
back
from this world
first we
go through
twilight
with its fiery
pitfalls
then through
personalities
hiding
in morning
skies
like a
wiser kind of
desire
disembodied
but
still seeking us
and
then back still
further
through clouds
of feeling stitched back
into
all things
the
silence behind
which
finally we find
as we
suspected
the original
crime
was love
all along
The full
moon
the white
bull
carries
on his
horny
shoulders
however
saturnine
or
terrible
the
voices
of its
storms
reflected
once
our
promissory
hearts
undergoing
love’s
surgeries
its scissors
tracking
sinew
cutting
toward
the bone
that
sun
that
wound
its
home
To
bare Patmos
he brought
son mere
the
man ripe
with
spent fury
the
wild man
of
grief they
called
him
after
the cave
voices
started
talking
to him
once every
week
he and
she would
eat
together
she
would show
him her
garden
he
would tell her
about
his visions
they
both loved
the
same man
how
could they
not
revere the
other’s
love
as
well?
At
9:50
the wind
licks
me
my
neck
and
cheeks
why
then
why
here
I notice
we are
all
ticking
geese
and trees
again
I
notice
you
but
now
from a
place
inside
the
wind
It’s
Wednesday
but I
thought
it was
Friday
to run
ahead
of
time is what
dreaming
does
to the
nerves
when
we return
to
rigid space
always
rearranging
the
props but
when
the patio
is
swept we sit
and
dream at ease
two
iced coffees
please
I’m
nursing
some new
grass
along
under
a new
moon not
all
deep matter
is
dark
matter
take
my manure
thinly
laid
as
cloisonné
over
thick gold
even
the sun
has
gathered in
a
hoard against
my
army of
green
spears
raised
swords
Hardly
ever
shutting
up
about
God
while
only
really
believing
in matter
in money
hardly
ever
quiet
about
freedom
while
keeping
slaves
for
three
hundred
years
and
still today
hardly
ever
able
to discern
the
charming
phony
from
the
honest face
of
friend will
be our
end
Even
the sun reversed
is good
in a lesser sense
with
their plaid shirts off
the
trees look amazingly
athletic
I almost said
pathetic
because there
is
that too sitting here
at
nature’s bedside
while
she drags out
where
that word
came from
they called
it a
thing at first
but it
looked like
a hand
issuing from
a
cloud grasping
a wand
or club
Every
day
I lose
faith
in poetry
and
some days
it
doesn’t come
back
like later
in the
day
after
it’s had
time
to reconsider
the
foolishness
of all
its words
gestures
tokens
everything
it’s
ever
said
and just
admit
it
just admit it
and apologize
One
small red leaf and I
occupy
this cloud-like table
floating
above the sheep meadow
of the
central park
of my
castled mind
with
its magic bed
laying
open on the page I read
half
of the leaf so red
lifts
slightly in my mind
as
easily in the wind
my
mind lifts too
while
the bed crashes around
in the
room where my mind
evicts
all its symbols
out
onto the lawn
and
even my heart that forest
feels heartlessly
glad for a time
Out of
infinitely
distant
realms
wafts this
little guy
gray-yellow
moth
would
you believe it up
onto a
leaf for me
or
equally not for me
but then
flies off
to
think the whole
thing
is made up
of
innumerable
small
sacrifices
everyone
is making
for
everyone else
whether
we
want to
or not
Always
the world
tries to
lull us
out of
ourselves
but we
snap back in
almost
at the last
moment
the one
we are
in our dreams
our
dream selves
come
to our rescue
by
getting remembered
and
then we abandon
this
shining world
for
inner pleasures
the
hard work
of
overcoming
the
fear in the eyes
of
every animal we meet
even
when they love us
they
don’t trust us
completely
I
language am
the empty
garage
free
of the car
longing
for the car
if I
photograph something
it
becomes my toy
my
victim my joy
when I’m
on the freeway
I feel
part of some great
piece of
music my one
note in
Bach or grunge
sometimes
Schubert
weaving
weaving
I wear
a mouth guard
for
when reality hits
which
makes it
hard
to sing
I
language am
humming
myself
This morning
wears its
cool insignificance
like a
sweater
it
swaggers-saunters
past
me
not
noticing
my
cloudless
eyes my
miniscule
I
perched
here
watching
him
loving
him
just
one
of that
dragonfly’s
fans
and friends
Snip-snip-snip
the lobotomy
the
vasectomy
of the
nailery
of slavery
in Thomas
Jefferson’s
capacious
mind the
flown
circuits where
neurons
meet their
waiting
dripping backs
blades
of grass
the
only truly
free
man ever
at
Monticello was
a
slave who
never
stopped
plotting
to escape
I
would offer
you
Buddha but
in
Buddha there
is no
I no takers
no
Buddha either
for
that matter nor
what
we call human
or
natural selection
which
wouldn’t exist
without
a mind
to
think it
up and
out
If I
look out
the window
and
tell
you I
see a
tree
and
you look
out
the very
same
window and
tell
me you see
an
elephant’s trunk
charging
toward us
flailing
and flopping
like the
cock
of
someone being
fucked
by wedged
processions
of swans
heading
north for
love
and money
really? and how
a free
economy
can
only support
lies
if we’re
not
all equal
really
To be
free
spirits
is all
we’ve
ever wanted
to
climb above
seas
of shame
above
coercive kings
and
conscience queens
who’ve
lived through
their humility
to
fame
and wealth
in
spiritual things
above
it all
to be
free
spirits
to have
torn loose
Having
copped to
what we
see
can’t
be trusted
isn’t
even real
we are
baffled
for
some minutes
it’s
fall when
we
look around
at two
options
pretend
this is
real all
this
or
take it
to
another level
as art
or
artifact
of countless
intelligent
life forms
we too
must
see
ourselves inside
I see
world
we built
you
up to tear
you
down you
decide
the time
place the
people
their
delivery and
the
rallying executions
you
hate us
now world
rejected
casting
off each
merely
provisional part
of you
as
bird
or leaf
magic
stone of
love
gone wrong
My ego
thinks he’s me
my ego
thinks he can
go
around letting people
think
he’s me like
pretending
to be a doctor
when
all he wants
is to
take off your clothes
my ego
thinks he’s real
my ego
doesn’t see you
standing
there shivering
naked
and alone
my ego
thinks he
can
examine you
my ego
thinks
he’s
not immortal
my ego
thinks
I might be
my ego
thinks
we
could go on
like
this forever