Friday, January 31, 2025

Until Valentine

There is a large part of me
Seriously addicted to me
And a smaller part in recovery
Still going to meetings in my mind
There is a part of me I never see
Until I become a stranger to me
And look back critically
On my creation of me
And see it will take a shove
Or a jolt must come
To get over myself
Incrementally
Little by little until
All littleness is gone 
And the world and I are one
As I've been telling me

Thursday, January 30, 2025

At Some Frontier Valentine

My warm hand grasps my cold hand
The greeting of my separate halves
Who stand and stare at one another
Best of strangers best of friends
Like two diplomats conjoined
Across a barbed-wire fence
Wondering if this rain will pass
Chatting about their children
One estranged one a dancer
Each sees the other in himself
But what brave cities sent them out
To cobble yet another peace
A weak heart on the one side
And a broken liver on the other

Wednesday, January 29, 2025

Ars Poetica Valentine

I think it is the classicist in me
That is secretly romantic
I feel it is the materialist in me
That used to be a mystic
I will to feel my thinking
A pebble on imagination's grave
That something may revive
Of our old first words
Mamma Papa you and me
I am nostalgic for tomorrow
Where everything is yet to be
And look back eagerly
On all my waiting still to come
Just to have you all again

Tuesday, January 28, 2025

Daily Valentine

I take my fury for a walk
Leashed and muzzled tight
Dragging me through the sunny
Streets struggling to keep up
Over to the park and pond
Where I can drown it
Under the swan's invisible feet
It is something she must eat
Snake-like with her yellow beak
How else develop her serenity
If not she feeds on scorn
Rage and pride reborn
More radiant when she flies
Over everything that dies

Monday, January 27, 2025

Gathered Valentine

Whenever two are gathered
And yet he and I make two
A circle small enough
To contain all others
 
Whenever we call their names
And the names we have forgotten
That used to be ours
And still I call his name
 
You whoever I used to be
Whenever he is in me
And you the others are in me
Because of him
 
And evil stands at the door
Knocking and we have let it in
To sit and speak with him
While we can only listen in

Some Real Conspiracies Valentine

On the noble gates of heaven
Open all night and all day
Some have hung No Trespassing signs
Some who want to convince us
There's nothing there because
They can't or will not see it
And even if there could be some Valhalla
We'll discover it when we're dead
Slamming the gates shut
Some who want to shackle knowledge
Of the light to power and violence
Exchange love for a vegetable life
(Is there a more abused word
Than love a more uncertain activity)
Some who would like to persuade us
This battle is not being fought
On other than wholly spiritual grounds

Sunday, January 26, 2025

Enough Valentine

I woke to the single cry
Of a bird being snatched by a cat
Just outside my window
I could feel its hunger
My stomach growling
And the helplessness of that
Bird as I lay dreaming
And when I rose and walked
Out into the perfect weather
Still hungry still helpless
A strange calm I found in the yard
The light silently breathing me
And there a beautiful feather lay
Just enough to go on

Saturday, January 25, 2025

Daring Valentine

I see they've built
A floating ladder
Up to where the mountain
Touches the cloudy sky
An easier way to get there
If you don't mind hanging
From a thread your feet
And hands clutching
Almost nothing but the light
Dangling between life
And death for a better
View of the abyss
We all must finally
Dare to cross

Friday, January 24, 2025

Fallen Spring Valentine

Out sailing toward the Flowering Quince
The good ship Daniel late from Bristol
Wrecked upon the Plymouth rocks
Of his own yard on his
Own hands and knees
Was it to see the mystery
Of the blood flowing pondering it
Like a child his pain 
Suppliant to the flowering quince
Their reds appeared the same
His hands and knees had no idea
They could be such flowers
Nor did the quince cognize
It had such human powers

Thursday, January 23, 2025

In The Heart Valentine

In the heart there is a narrow gap
I've squeezed through
Between two towering
Walls of stone a point
I could have been caught at
If I hadn't thought
To climb over and from there
The passage opened wide
And I could descend
Though I still haven't made it
To that valley's silver thread
I could see it now hurrying on
Carrying all the light left
To bring me home

Tuesday, January 21, 2025

Selfie's Valentine

I took a selfie of my shadow
Supine on the scintillant snow
Its dark dial warning me
The light was growing late
And another of the shadow
Of the bare branches of a tree
Across which other shadows sailed
That could have been its leaves
Until I entered the shadow world
Of darker and more delicate gray
And came unhinged from the sun
As if I could go my own way
My furtive shadow on the run
Absolved by yet another noon

Monday, January 20, 2025

At The Last Valentine

A day to catch up
With all the days
That won't wait
That won't last
A rush of cars
Speeding past you
Leaving you alone
On the open road
In the middle
Of the desert
The first green
Just coming on
At last going
Nowhere being
No one now

Hillside's Valentine

On the horizon just over there
Distance always seems so peaceful
Except for those little fires
Springing up everywhere
From here we can watch
Another city burn while the sun
With startling beauty
Illuminates our loss
Herself escaping unharmed
And slowly we'll be standing
As if placed among the planets
And the stars in their millions
Each a life we have left to live
And all the time in the world

Sunday, January 19, 2025

My Last Teacher's Valentine

Now an old woman of some means
Who'd once been a beauty queen
She could afford a gardener
And a secretary/house cleaner
So her students could come and sit
In a quiet spotless room
Where she would show them pictures
Of children at different ages
Some with marble faces
And still-fresh smiles
And paintings of a child turning
From his mother's right 
Shoulder to her left squirming
To get a better look at you
There in her candlelight

Friday, January 17, 2025

Children's Valentine

With a grin of wonderment
She confesses how both she
And her husband were terrible
Defiant arrogant children
Where did we come from
To punish our good parents
And now she has seven
Grandchildren all under nine
She enjoys beyond gold
The mystery she says
Is how all those years
Of being a brat taught me
What we as children are up against
And how to love and comfort them

Thursday, January 16, 2025

Allegorical Valentine

When their willowy daughter Love
Married Freedom the lawyer's son
(These really were their given names)
They fought and fought
Made up and made up again
Their upstairs neighbors Hate and Scorn
Banged on the ceiling to no avail
When Freedom was on a rampage
And Love would take him to bed
Or turn the music up louder
So they could dance and sing
Until they were forced to break the lease
One day in the rain last spring
I heard they're homeless now
Or maybe gone back to Greece

Wednesday, January 15, 2025

Occult Valentine

Yesterday Mars snuck
Behind the moon rising
Full and resplendent
To their rendezvous
Like someone coming up
Behind you or a bee
Buzzing around a blossom
So you stand very still
While it makes its passage
Emerging chastened on the other side
And from that theater of stars
Sighs of relief descend
That set our wolves to howling
In our world without end

Tuesday, January 14, 2025

Annual Physical Valentine

Stripped before a beautiful stranger
Young enough to be my soul
So this is what you've been up to
All these many lives she smiles
As she probes with artifice and skill
My every orifice and cranny
To find how far some darkness
Has gotten into me how much
Reserves are left to go on fighting
She smiles but she is not amused
As I resume what modesty I've saved
Getting dressed and slipping back
Into this my one and only body
Diagnosis mortal with immortal parts
Still doomed for resurrection

Monday, January 13, 2025

Caught Valentine

But one morning he was caught
In a sudden net of birds
Coasting just above his head
It is the end he thought
Just like this evacuation
The soul rushing up out of the body
And then dropped back in again
Sufficient miracle to grasp
Other eyes were fleetingly
Watching over him
When their eyes met
And he was carried off
A veil was rent and he could glimpse
The glory that would shatter him

Saturday, January 11, 2025

Hammering Away Valentine

Happily his little radio sings
Love songs in foreign languages
While the lonely carpenter
Slowly rebuilds the world
From the last few trees and birds
Resting quietly at noon to enjoy
His mother's delicious sandwiches
She got up early to prepare
Never knowing when he'd return
Sometimes he's gone for years
Sometimes she wishes secretly
He'd give it all up and come home
But she knows how much love is left
When everything else is gone

Friday, January 10, 2025

Earth's Valentine

Smaller and smaller every year
The earth will finally collapse
In upon itself through the black
Hole swallowing at its center
Even now it's being peeled away
I hear the shovels digging up the graves
To plant more bodies in the news
The forests shunting to a halt
The harrowing implication 
We must let it all go
And build yet another home
Out of the nothing left
Take up a little dirt and water
And rub it on our eyes
To see it all begin again
The sun inside the moon returned
Whatever our courage can manage
Whatever our hearts can salvage

Thursday, January 9, 2025

Lady Light Valentine

Light is a lady who loves the darkness
Then leaves it to itself alone
If that's the way you want it she goes
Then that's the way it will be
But think about what I said
I will come back when you
Have exhausted all your quarrels
The hard words you can't
Take back I will absolve them all
Every cruelty I will sever
With a bright leaf and lift
You tenderly in my arms
Who knows what galaxies we beget
When we lie down together

Unfound Valentine

How many keep rushing back
As if they'd forgotten something
They can't remember 
When they get here
No idea what urgency
Compels them to return
Unless uncertainty itself
The sense of something missing
That makes going on
Impossible without it
They stand there in the middle
Of the room stared at
By those who love them
Struggling to separate
Panic from wonder
The past unknown as the future
That something still unfound

Wednesday, January 8, 2025

Calling Valentine

I got a call from the Unknown
Who left no message but
A call-back number
Which I dialed and kept
Getting a busy signal
But it they she randomly
Keep calling me
And even when I do pick-up
There's only the sound
Of time breathing in and out
I pretend it's some old friend
From the other side of the world
Who saved my number
To see if I'd remember him

Tuesday, January 7, 2025

Lord's Valentine

In the end did I let you down again
But that was only my beginning
I kept posing as myself
Shifting ideas of who I might be
From one hand to the other
I have always been divided
And half-afraid of love
And yet convinced it is all
That matters the best thing
You gave to me I can see it now
Don't let my leaving be
The last thing to let you down
In a way I'm glad
We have so far to go

Monday, January 6, 2025

Epiphany Valentine

Already talking back to his mother
The twelve day old child looks up
From her breast to welcome
The wealth and wisdom of the world
Like any child he is amazed
By the magic they perform
And the stories of their lives
You can tell by his dreamy smile
And in the opposite window
A naked man stands in a river
Fishes for his feet his hands
Open to receive not a part
But behold the entire future

Sunday, January 5, 2025

Epiphany Eve Valentine

There is in us a deep desire
To find something to adore
A body or a bird or a great cause
To which we can surrender
Always and everywhere
Separately and collectively
We have built an altar in our hearts
To something better than ourselves
To emulate and worship
With our burnt offerings
We seem to sense something there
That might restore us to our
Former glory we vaguely recall
To our place among the stars

Saturday, January 4, 2025

Sign's Valentine

Two heavy volcanic stones
I rescued from the coast
One oblong but flat enough
To place the other on
In the shape of a fish's head
One oval eye embedded
With a gleaming yellow shell
A circle for a mouth
I set them on the wall
Above my wooden gate
To remind me of Jonah
And the rollicking sea
Here in the desert
In the belly of the world
Awaiting my delivery

Friday, January 3, 2025

Sprouting Valentine

I spy the past limping
Winding through the future trees
It keeps coming back
Showing up in the oddest places
Today I found a seed in my pocket
A tiny brown planet
Worn down by too many nights
Spun far out of its orbit
All these years keeping
A consciousness of me
I felt it held me in its grip
Longing to be planted somewhere 
As soon as I would find it
How much time we'd wasted
Hurrying toward the ground

Thursday, January 2, 2025

How Else Valentine

At the end of the year
When the year just resurrects
Another year I cleared
My small closet of all
I'd counted on the treasures
I'd stashed away and found
An old shopping-cart 
And piled all of them in
And walked the streets
Of last year's dreams
It all had to go
Into memory's savings account
And little by little would
Until that closet was empty
The shelves cleared of dust
A few hangers jangling
To hang the future on
How else stay calm
How else go on

Wednesday, January 1, 2025

Cast Out Valentine

After the first rejection
Which must come to everyone
Little acts of kindness
Tried to cover it up

But they knew they had to flee
Freeing and cleansing at first
To leave everything behind
Watching terror shrink
 
With every eager step away
After all it was a coming home
To old friends who took them in
Found them a little house
 
On the edge of town
Where the boy could play
And grow wonderful in peace
Getting ready to return