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What are you up for today
Hesiod’s last work
Don’t forget the rent is
due
I’ll be right back
It’s all done by email
I suppose you never
thought of that
Have some cold water
If you tell me when I hurt
you
I will ask for your
forgiveness
The idea that I don’t need
you
Is what is ruining the
earth
At night the archangels
come
And we laugh and talk until
morning
Sometimes we spend the
whole night crying
Sometimes no one shows up
at all
When I woke up this
morning
Gasping for air and
covered in sweat
I felt like someone swept
up
Onto a deserted island
beach
Shipwrecked by a sudden
storm
Apparently the only
survivor
So quiet listening to the
waves
Lapping in disbelief and
loss
Of the whole world laying
there
In the wet sand trying to
remember
What those last moments
were
What I could have said but didn't
Before heaven rejected me
Threw me out the door
Said I would have to
suffer more
Every day I go out to
watch
The thin caterpillars
fatten
Into Wall St. bankers
Feasting on the vine’s
green leaves
Where the butterfly placed
Her pin-prick eggs one at
a time
Now an army of ruin and
devastation
Flaying even the stems
And killing their own
source
Sweeps over them all
Just so they can curl up
in their shrouds
Doze off behind their
gauzy curtains
While some magic happens
And they wake as
butterflies again
If as a child I had not
dreamed
Of the goddess of goodness
If I had not been crazed
By sea stories and
mysteries
And not been allowed to
fester
Like a boil on my
adolescent ass
All summer long
If I had not been woken up
By sight of you as if
Childhood had resumed
In the heart this time
Of an aging frame
Then I would not be here
Some flowers long to be
birds
Some birds long to be
thoughts
Some thoughts long to be
held
By words that long to be
forgotten
Some trees long to be wind
Some winds long to be sun
Some longings long to be
done
With fickle days
And ignorant nights
And settle into satisfied
And gratified by rights
With whatever is
But I’m not one
Space is negotiable
Time is fixed
Whether you’re a travel
agent
Or an astrophysicist
Space is eternal
Time like a net
Stretched across it
Some get through
Some get caught
Space the gentlest lover
Time the better dancer
Space is love
Time is freedom
At least in the human kingdom
As love happens
They stood across
From one another
One planted
One imported
It was as though
A dove entered
Its branches singing
A smudged laudate
Could be made of it
But the vine was already
Covered with caterpillars
Eating her away
And the dove flew off
Pursued by her mate
But in the epilogue
The tree blooms blue
Is it shame or glory
And the vine
Fills with butterflies
Orange and dusky brown
The demands of each day
On the postures of prayer
Always seem smaller
Than we imagined them
Or what inspired them
As in the four nations
Of the seasons we observe
Individual destinies
Of color and form
Characteristic of each
mood
Within a whole colony of
leaves
But each season is just
one more person
Who steps forward to be
evaluated
And found worthy to carry
the future
Across the finish line or
not
A plant is like a painting
because
It can only look out at
you
But you can see in the
eyes
Of the woman in this
painting
That she knows something
menacing
Is looming up behind her
And her eyes are pleading
With you a total stranger
Just out to see the
paintings
To see that this is you
Your sister as the
painting
Of a plant and you
Yourself behind her
Father Death
And Brother Sun
I see together
What you have done
Making out of evil’s
Good and True
Better and Truer
Life rescued
And revived
By chosen love
And effort’s need
To find in all
You’re doing the one
Necessary deed
Only here in this world
In a body in this world
Are we free to know
Our own thoughts
But only if we’re willing
To struggle through
To whatever they are
The things we chose
To think about here on earth
Because over there after
death
Our thoughts will be
handed to us
Out of the purest
necessity
Our own will be taken away
The simplest logic will
reign
Only here do we have the
choice
When offered freedom to refrain
If poetry is making
Nothing happen that’s
Exactly where I want to be
If it just lies there on
the page
Like a nude painting
having
A now-forbidden cigarette
Waiting for the
artist-hero to arrive
That’s just one version
The world has of me
But if poetry is a longing
To become the world
In some singular way
Using words like
Children jump on beds
Reckless and joyful
Then yes I would say
If thinking is the
youngest part of us
The baby of the family
Those years of initiation
into barbarism
And self-sufficiency
remember
While our feelings ran
years ahead
Of their time and yet
going back
Centuries were like a tall
Proud older sister who’s
been
Watching us ‘f’ up for
years
Trying to con or bully her
Though she keeps her hopes
up for us
But up where when it’s all
Downhill from here
To the feet of the will
Who rules and rules
The will that must will to
will
Did you begin as a poor
cactus
And learn to be this
succulent
Under a threatening
demeanor
Perfect such confident
sweetness
In which your seeds are
embedded now
Like many-breasted Artemis
I remember from textbooks
As the Greeks sculpted her
She looked like she was
wearing
Necklaces of pineapples
Rows and rows of them
With which she clearly
meant
To save the world
If it would let her
If you hold every material
thing
However beautiful however
tragic
As the outcome of some
considerable
Artistic labor on the part
Of skilled geometricians
Who are also surgical
gardeners
Having invented water for
healing
The gods go back that far
Finally you get to the
will’s
Pure electric pulsing
Thoughtful as a cold
spring
Or a cabbage in a field
You get to the bottom of
your fate
And not a moment too late
The sun is aiming high
For where I’m sitting
It touches my forehead
first
Seeping down over the
right
Top corner of my face so
I can feel the tenderness
Under its awesome power
Coming up behind me
To create and to destroy
Which apparently now
It shares with us
Our sun of thinking
In the darkness of the
brain
Struggling to retain
Some forgotten hillside
In some lost terrain
Maybe the only setback
Is thinking there are
setbacks
After all everything’s
moving forward
Into another world even if
We have to circle back
sometimes
Not wanting to leave
Anything important behind
And often having to
relinquish unfound
The safety we were
searching for
But the pattern moves us
on
And we hurry to catch up
I think of ducklings I
think
We are all ugly ducklings
to the gods
I think they invented
ponds
If we follow along
Probably undocumented
workers
Laying concrete driveways
where
The temporary and the
permanent
Coalesce as they smooth
the cement
To a woman’s softness left
glittering
In the sun of another hot
day
Though it’s all on the
other side of a wall
And I can only hear it
blindly
But I’ve watched it all
before
The mixer truck sighs like
a whale
After it’s all poured out
The workers laugh and
whistle
As it almost topples over
on them
The whoosh of the sea-like
cement
As it rains down the
trough
A prayer and a cry
Eternity passing by
My meeting with the
reversal
Of all I was meaning
To do and become
Arrived when I looked
Into the full moon mirror
And could see what lay
behind me
And what lies ahead
But whose corpse is the
moon
Buried then exhumed
Over and over
Stalking the earth
One-eyed death
Always peering down
Vigilant over the hurrying
herd
Night leaves its naked
exclamation
Point leaning against the
sky
Light floods the dream
Washing away towns and
forests
To build underwater
civilizations
So the rest can go on
But one time I remembered
there
Something that could only
have come
From this side of the
mountain
Where we are even more
asleep
Caught in the senses’
thrall
More fairy-tale than fact
Something that overcame
the dream
For a few moments of
clarity
So I could see the world
It came from gushing life
After which nothing
Was ever the same
When the body went into
the bread
Like a grave or a seed
Alone in the darkness
without ceremony
First it found its way to
the bodies
Of babies and children in
mass graves
All over the world
Where it became that green
wave
Coming to meet them
Weeds growing freely in
schoolyards
And vast empty places
Only then could it go on
To enter the rest
Of the earth around it
To root itself and sprout
Stored or pending and then
Total final rejection
Is what this week’s about
Which often seems to be
Preceded by some
jubilation
Though the signs say
retrograde
And imbalance somehow
Always catching up
Always falling behind
Make up your mind
The feast is on the table
But then the table turns
Death eats its fill
What’s awful is his
silence
Suffering the joy
Of his beautiful will
You and I and we
Write our history
Our X or foolish flourish
As the gods intend
Eternity is round after
all
Not what the flat-earthers
taught
You would fall off
Into nothingness Gehenna
And live no more
Even if it takes a hundred
years
For one moment to appear
Of true sight you and I
and we
Saw it weaves and dances
For pure delight
A few days after the first
Bloom opened the first
Gulf Fritillary arrived
Identified itself all up
And down the passion vine
As if conveying
reassurance
Of rescue then it was
gone
To alert the searching
clan
Here is nesting ground
The place marked now
On the map of their shared
mind
The vine could only wait
For its emancipation
But then don’t we all
I had wanted to hold you
more
But now you’re slipping
away
Drawn on as always by the
dark
Demons you pursue
Around the world’s track
It’s not true there will
be
More like you how many
People-lives does it take
To make you this one day
So peaceful I could feel
Movement in the light
Around me a rushing sound
For just a few moments
Lifting me off the ground
Who sees how to love
Who sees it’s the only
Conceivable reason for all
This sun and earth
This cosmic rigmarole
Whose obfuscation
Composes history
Have you noticed
The sky in dreams
There’s no sun there
Just the remembered sun
Of other dreams dark
With promise as if
The sun were shining
Through the earth
A leaf seen through
And you could see
Love’s worth
Frank O’Hara thought
The task of art
Was to free the will
Of humanity everywhere
I love his ‘To The
Harbormaster’
The archetypal O’Hara poem
To me because it bridges
An old way of speaking
About will and freedom
With a new profligacy
Of ordinary and
Extraordinary things
Everyone around him
Wanted to be him
What does that tell you
Billy
Today I found an
eight-sepaled
Pomegranate seed which is
like
Finding the grail or a
four-leaf clover
In the pomegranate kingdom
Just imagine a bumblebee
Building his home in one
of your arms
And every day he flies off
small as love
In search of just this
perfect
Eight-membered treasure
Newly fallen where I found
it
Which means it had died
Gone in search of another
world
When life was already the
prize
When the future finds
itself
Standing still in the wind
Of the present moment
The past rushes in to meet
it
The holy trinity of time
Extending in the mind
Whose sole purpose is to
pass away
In endless waking
More and more waking
Which the wind embodies
Half temperature half air
Restless with
enlightenment
And turmoil half an answer
Half a dare
I often feel on waking
That I’ve been saved
From some disaster
Fallen on you instead
That I am being fed
While you are being
Starved somewhere
The artist too sacrifices
itself
Trying to marry the girl
and the boy
Adding something
improbable
But revealing in its way
When gazing is not enough
One bird calling to
another
Your turn will come
When only a god can say
When we'll have to remember
Everything we’ve said
When we'll have to go
Back over it all
Editing and correcting
Adjusting and perfecting
Sooner or later we’ll
Have to get back to that
day
No further than that
To those few blazing moments
When I caught a glimpse
Of a great being
Standing behind you
From which your little
life
was growing and had grown
Not even quite enough
light
In my narrow yard
To grow a rose past
A single season
But somehow the light
there is
Makes a rose of a garden
With its requisite share of
thorns
Because the rose is a
desert flower
First constructed by
layers
Of fire and raving light
Cooked to a boil and risen
To a froth through long
nights
As if some alchemist once
said
If you would see love
Look at this I made
Please take me to your
country father
I am just a boy and the
armies of death
Pursue me with their
dreams
Of wealth and lands
My days are full
Of my own littleness
To which I try to
surrender
And dissolve I remember
your kiss
On my forehead and hands
I remember when you sent
me out
When it was really me
rejecting you
I am just a boy your son
Please take me to your
country father
Or I am done